Hi. I'm an anarchist. And I'm against porn.

Hi. I'm an anarchist. And I'm against porn.

Now, there are a few very vital distinctions that go with that:
1. I'm not asking for laws to be made to ban porn (that's sort of anti-anarchistic).
2. I mean a very specific type of porn: corporate-based porn.

The overarching problem with sexually-explicit content is the ubiquity of corporatization.
That is, sexual content made available and encouraged due to, and via, fear.

Now, I don't think sharing your sexuality is bad. In fact, I actually found a site where I can do just that, and literally by recording from your webcam, since I want to talk about these issues in multi-dimensional form, and not just by text.

Originally, my intent was to post on NoFap, as that site is close the the ideas that I've been coming to. However, it's its own community, and per the obvious problems that come with discussing sexual trance, I was not able to even make a first post (with nudity links eliminated) talking about my standpoint and questions, without eliminating all of the links, period.

Fortunately, in copying and pasting the text to here, the links are retained:

Title:
"Recognition of a Flawed Perspective"

Body:

"Hi.

I've had a very deep relationship with porn, and I saw nothing wrong with that. 

(I even got banned from this site due to my fundamental confusion about it, and deemed a troll.)

Until recently. I was talking about veganism/vegetarianism and that corporatism is the reason that our habit of eating meat is so prevalent. and I realized that the same argument applies to porn. The self-hatred, the lack of care of self, the use of sex to get attention, and so forth, all reduces to the elimination of presence in favor of addiction. And this reduces to corporatism. 

Corporatism is, essentially, statism. It's the atmosphere and flavor of a society that is based on taxation. Now, I recognized the flaw of this when I was very young, mainly from property taxes. But I had blinded myself to the full conclusion of anarchism by having already masturbated to porn for years on end. When you have the sex trance, and your position isn't clearly morally defined to you, then there is no position: there's just the sex trance.

Originally, when I realized this, I decided that I would put a full stop to any self-touching. It was partially in relation to an inspirational post somewhere on here. I pressed a button while I was considering the question of jacking off, and I got to the thread. But I had no referent, so I screencapped it. I decided I would not touch myself, period; masturbation, I concluded, using a theory I'd been working on, reduced presence. I even got rid of the porn on my tumblr (at least, what I could see). I think advocated meditation instead of masturbation.

But there's an important caveat (a few of them, actually):

1. The biggest one is my wife. We're semi-separated, and whenever I go over there, we can't not have sex. We like each other too much. She practically "rapes" me. But this isn't about sex, it's about touching myself to her, whether that be in regard to us talking, or looking at pictures of her. 

Essentially, any content that isn't corporate-based I consider to be fine to get off to, because the dopamine dynamic makes for accelerated learning, and to do such accelerated learning in a natural, organic context, I think is a healthy thing, as well as an outlet for sexual frustration. It is, however, as being an outlet, that this falls under suspicion. I consider the fundamental question to be, "Will this alleviate the corporate porn chemical structure that I've burned into my brain, or not?"

Trigger: these next points could potentially be triggers. I'm presenting them for discussion because I want to get a better grip on whether I should discard them.

2. Book porn. Literally, naked women and books. Like this. And this. Scroll down on the first one, and you'll see more books, booty, and boobs. I don't know about you, but it makes me want to cum and then get down and dirty with a good book.

3. Real people having sex. Like this. While technically it still adheres to a lacking of presence, this again is organic objectification, and has an absolute limit of how far lack of care could go. These are real people, and your reactions will affect them.

In juxtaposition with this, I've been becoming more critical of anarchism, principally because I hold to holarchism, which, while having most of the anarchistic principles as its foundation, does not in any fundamentally way focus on social grouping; it's all focused on the importance of the individual. I made two videos about it, here and here.

While it has been partially due to the prodding of Daniel Magus, it's something that's been on my mind for years. It's based on the total environment of anarchists' being that of a statist culture, such that there is a search for "The Solution"; rightly goes the thought that "anarchists do not offer The Solution", yet there is an overly-rigid paranoia about social groups. The same way that statists see all social groups as forms of government, so too do most anarchists see social groups as the anti-thesis of anarchism. Despite the recognition that social grouping does not entail statism, there is no effort to consolidate the needs of what statism shows to a human want: organization above the individual level. The focus is exclusively on ensuring the recognition of self-rule. The problem with this is that the reality is, we are social animals. Not that we, necessarily, have to use force to maintain that, but that is the anarchistic assumption: social groups will be done via force. While it is true that most current versions are indeed just that, anarchists do not actually propose any alternate versions of societal structure or thought. You would think that this would be covered by the "The Solution" problem, but it isn't. It is the same assumption set as atheism, which has led to scientism, and a rejection of the reality of quantum mechanics' non-locality: it is the rejection of social grouping in favor of individualism, the same problem of ideological sustainability that feminism faces.

It was in still arguing with people on facebook and YouTube, that I ended up getting sick, and, in feeling like shit about myself, masturbated grandiosely, 4 times in a single morning, and the last one to chaturbate, when I'd had a 1-2 week run of complete abstinence from touching myself. It was a wake-up call to get off of arguing about things on facebook and YouTube as much as possible, and read some good books, apply to some corporate jobs, get ready to learn some singing and music, and get some coding done to make an idea I have for a better facebook, Social Wiki, a reality.

I know I've covered a lot of ground with this post. It's partially because, about a week ago, I wanted to write about this topic, but the possibility of reactivating my banned account was not an option, which was extremely disheartening, and I couldn't figure out how to make a new thread. In fact, the only reason I'm writing this one is because I got to link to be able to write it via email... albeit, I'm seeing, 11 days ago at this point. Well, I got frustrated and dropped it, and used the app instead. 

But, the app does not allow for distinctions regarding the MPO stuff. If you masturbate, you've relapsed. So, now I'm on the forum here, per the new fuzziness that I want to discuss:

The essential thing to note is that what I most want to talk about, first, is whether it makes sense to masturbate to the things listed above."

On here, I'm fairly certain that I can mark this blog as 18+, and discuss and link to topics as I need.

It could be seen as exceptionalism, but, well... it's pretty obvious that my story, here, is an exception. In many different ways.

Some links that I don't think I included in the original that I think are pertinent are as follows:
I deleted the porn I could find on my tumblr... though I keep seeing it again and it annoys the hell out of me.

I tumblred "Masturbation Reduces Presence".

My first thoughts regarding the corporatization problem for the majority of sexually-explicit content.

So, this post serves as a sort of gestalt of a basic introduction:

I'm here because I'm frustrated that I couldn't find a place to talk about my perspective on these issues, thoughts, ideas, and concerns easily. And I expect that I'll be able to do so much more easily here. And I'm sorry if it looks a bit confused. I've been hibernating my computer with that NoFap "create thread" page up in hopes that I would eventually be able to post it to the site. Nope.